No time to write: I have a zillion things to do, and I can't blog about any of them. However, I want to share news of one event. Last night I advanced to 9th gup in Tang Soo Do . Nice red stripe on my white belt, and I'm now significantly closer to testing for my orange belt some time in the (hopefully) near future.
It's been so long since I worked so hard to accomplish such small advances in a new field. It's thrilling. My wife and kids were present when my stripe was awarded. And though I couldn't see them as I took a knee before Sa Bom Nim Nunan, arms stretched wide, to receive my stripe, I could hear them cheering.
I felt like the Grinch must have felt when he figured out the real meaning of Christmas, I swear. My heart felt just That. Damn. Big. And when instructors and fellow students who have worked at this for years and years, who have demonstrated nothing but formidable skill and talent and love of this art, in recognition of your achievement bow -- just this once -- to you ... ?
Well. It's humbling. There's really no other word for it.
Why the hell didn't I do this years ago?
Mood: Harried, happy
Now Playing: Nothing.
Friday, January 27, 2006
Thursday, January 19, 2006
Cutting the Gordian Knot
I'm taking the vast majority of my blog offline, possibly for good. It might be a while before I post again.
Why? Well, I need to re-evaluate how much of myself I really want to share here. This blog started off as a semi-anonymous outlet ("semi-anonymous" in the sense that I didn't put too much immediately identifiable info about myself or my family in the posts, or go out of my way to let lots of people know it existed) for me to express opinions and work things through. This being the Internet, and people being the inquisitive little monkeys they are, it's not so anonymous anymore. As a result I spend half my "blogging" time self-censoring and suppressing myself. Therefore this blog -- as it currently exists -- has become worse than useless.
While I've enjoyed taking the opportunity to express myself on this and that, utlimately doing so without being able to either control my audience or maintain my anonymity has become a fairly constant source of frustration, and occasionally a source of outright anger. I do not need additional sources of frustration, and anger is an emotion I try -- with varying degrees of success -- to keep out of my life whenever possible.
The simplest solution is the Gordian Knot approach.
I've archived all of my own content, and may bring some of it back online when I've had time to sift through it and decide what I don't mind sharing with the world at large anymore. However, this blog will probably remain somewhat stagnant for a while. Feel free to drop me a line if there's something you've seen here that you'd like to see again.
Mood: Dejected
Now Playing: Nothing
Why? Well, I need to re-evaluate how much of myself I really want to share here. This blog started off as a semi-anonymous outlet ("semi-anonymous" in the sense that I didn't put too much immediately identifiable info about myself or my family in the posts, or go out of my way to let lots of people know it existed) for me to express opinions and work things through. This being the Internet, and people being the inquisitive little monkeys they are, it's not so anonymous anymore. As a result I spend half my "blogging" time self-censoring and suppressing myself. Therefore this blog -- as it currently exists -- has become worse than useless.
While I've enjoyed taking the opportunity to express myself on this and that, utlimately doing so without being able to either control my audience or maintain my anonymity has become a fairly constant source of frustration, and occasionally a source of outright anger. I do not need additional sources of frustration, and anger is an emotion I try -- with varying degrees of success -- to keep out of my life whenever possible.
The simplest solution is the Gordian Knot approach.
I've archived all of my own content, and may bring some of it back online when I've had time to sift through it and decide what I don't mind sharing with the world at large anymore. However, this blog will probably remain somewhat stagnant for a while. Feel free to drop me a line if there's something you've seen here that you'd like to see again.
Mood: Dejected
Now Playing: Nothing
Wednesday, January 18, 2006
Chuck Norris Facts
Chuck Norris Facts.
Brilliant idiocy.
Mood: Good
Now Playing: Kid Creole and the Coconuts, "The Best of Kid Creole and the Coconuts"
Brilliant idiocy.
Mood: Good
Now Playing: Kid Creole and the Coconuts, "The Best of Kid Creole and the Coconuts"
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